We returned laughing to the table when I caught a very mad look by Mark.
To do him a favor I mentioned "San, you're too much in shape for me! Mark should take over for the next songs, don't you think?"
She looked astonished but replied "I'd love to, don't ya Markz?"
He just nodded and got up. I saw her taking his hand, pulling him to the dance floor.
"That worked" I sighed.
"What worked?" Nicky asked with a very evil look.
"San and Mark. That's his chance" - I wondered why I had to tell him?!
"Oh!"
That night Nicky and I got very drunk. We didn't follow the story between Mark and San.

The next days Mark was quieter than before but he didn't want to talk about what bothered him.

A few months later we were back in London again, for some business.
We had an interview at a radio station. It was a bit boring for Nicky and me coz the others got more attention due to their lead vocals.
So we both were watching the scene quite bored.
Again, I recon her - now with dark brown hair, wearing casual cloths looking a bit crunchy, I must admit.
"Hey! San!?"
"Kee?! - Ah, you folks again" she now grinned and came over to us. We hugged and kissed our hellos.
"Nice to see you again, lady" Nicky said with an evil look.
"Yeah, still charming, Byrne!?"
"San, you're traveling almost as much as we do - what's the crack?" I interrupted the flirting of a married man
"Hey Kee, do you remember me, the girl wants to see the world?"
"London's not the world" I mentioned.
"Honey, it's just a stop on the half way" she gave me a look of passion she always wanted to see the Hot Spots of the world and doing crazy things like saving Koalas in the outback, study sharks in South Africa (were we last met), working as a cow girl in Canada

We chatted, while Nicky was still flirting with her, when suddenly Shane asked me to take over for him, he had to go for a pi
"Babe, you wait here for me, ha?" I asked her.
"If you want me to" she smiled.
"I sure do, darling" I was the public Kian again - but she knew

When I returned to Nicky, San and Shane I couldn't believe my eyes; San was sitting on Nicky's lab and he had wrapped his arms around her waist, resting his chin on her shoulder and grinning like a winner!?
Mark wasn't pleased by this view either; he turned away and walked off without even saying hello.
"Nix, can I have a word with you?" I asked.
"Later"
"NOW!!"
San had lifted her butt already and Nicky got up to follow me.
"What's going on here?"
"What're you talking about?"
"You, a married man, flirting with San?!"
"Keano, what do you bother?"
"Me? - Why don't you ask Mark what he bothers - like his mate cheating with his favorite girl!?"
"He still's got a crush on her? - He didn't manage to get her, so this must be a one-way" "Even though, you're married to Gina - remember?"
"Egan, you're not the one telling me to don't cheat on my girl! You're the master of fooling around, cheating your girls"
"Well, it's not me flirting with one of my best friends! - I don't want her to get hurt."
"Ki, do you have feelings for her?"
"Why?"
"You never cared for a girl before *not to get hurt*."
"Ah, Nix - don't change the subject!"
"Okay"

She was gone now, but she left Shane a note for me:
#Kee-Boo,
sorry, had to leave
Call me and we talk.
No.'s:
Love, San#

"What are you smiling at?" Shane asked.
"Nothing." - I lied J

We got to the hotel early and as soon as I was alone in my room, I gave her a call.
"Hello?"
"San?"
"Yes?"
"This is Kian"
"Hi Kee"
"Hi sweety."
" Listen, what's Nicky up to? - I felt a bit weird by his acting"
"Dunno. - Don't you like him?"
"As one of you rat pack but I don't fancy him!"
"That's good"
"Kee? - Are you joking at me?!"
"What? - No, of course not"
" Wanna come over?"
"If it's not to late"
"Nah, you're always welcome"
"That's sweet"
"I'll pick ya backside the hotel in 20 min."
"Car or Bike?"
"Bike."
"Got a helmet for me?"
"Sure, we need to keep your rest of a brain save"
"Ah, bye for now"
"Later"

She picked me up and we went to her place.
Posh! - is all I can tell to describe it
"Don't look like that, Egan! You're used to posh things"
"What do you do for living?" I asked worried.
"Babe, it's a friends place. I can use it while I'm here."
" Doesn't answer my question."
"No Kian, I don't do the naughty things anymore since ages. No Go-Go's or table dances anymore, since 5 years."
"Thank God! I couldn't stand the thought of you being watched and touched by some old drunken workers"
"Why's that?" she asked me astonished.
"Ohm, dunno. - You're one of my closest friends beside the lads and I always care about my friends."
"That's sweet, Darling" she gave me a tiny kiss. "I just go and change. - I need to get out of those leather pants. It's too hot for early April." She disappeared.
I heard her calling from somewhere "get some beer outta fridge or wine must be in the kitchen as well."
"Whatta you want?" I yelled back.
"Whatever you choose, Hun"
So I went to the kitchen and got some wine. I choose a good red one, only a bit sweet so really nice for a summer eve with nice company
With two glasses and an opened bottle I went to the garden.
Just at that moment San re-appeared - in nothing than a bikini-bra and a short denim skirt!
"Wow! You're hot, baby"
"You think so? Ah, I just wanna get more tainted."
We sat down on that Hollywood swing.

After it got dark and we both were a bit drunk, by accident she swept some wine on her chest. We had been joking and cheeky I was and leaned over to lick the wine of her skin.
"Don't twinkle me" she whispered, running her fingers through my hair.
"You taste so sweet" I moaned.
When I looked up, straight into her beautiful oceanic eyes, I saw this expression of passion again - and got lost!
She lifted my chin with two of her fingers and leaned forward to kiss me! - Not like before! More like lovers?!
So I put the glasses back to the table and returned kissing and caressing her on every inch of her sexy body - man, I was horny!
When I licked her nipples, she pulled me back to a seating position and got on my lab.
I ran my hands up her legs and when my hands were covered by the denim of her skirt, I discovered she was wearing no panties! "Naughty" I mumbled.
" never pretended to be a good girl" her voice was now so husky. That turned me on even more.
She unbuttoned my jeans and unpacked my dick. While twisting my tongue she got on me

A summer night in London, having outdoor sex with a very hot chick, who really knows you, in a dark garden - it was so perfect!
Her husky voice whispering "Kee-Boo" - I mean, she's the only one to call me this - she rode me insane and I liked it!

After reaching the climax we kissed for a while.
"Need a shower?" she looked at me still horny.
"Only if you join me"
So we continued or re-started under the shower now I made her go mad! J

Dressed again, back at the lounge, we were caressing each other, just cuddling.
"Kee, don't get me wrong boy, please! You mean a lot to me and I wanted it like you did - but don't expect us to be a couple now. I'll be gone in two weeks and we both still need our freedom to do what we like"
"It's alright, love. I would love to repeat tonight for the time you being here. We stay friends for later, right?"
"You're so perfect, Boo" she gave me a never ending tender kiss.

So we had some more nights like this one and I got the opportunity to discover some new things and to get to know some interesting sides of the girl
The night before she'd left was amazing - she made me f*ck her first, than I loved her so softly and when we woke up, she whispered "You'll stay in my heart." It meant so much to me - no *I love you's* in the world could cope with!

Recording and promo finished and I hadn't heard from her.
The first time was a bit hard, I'd missed her - I must admit.
But continuing with my old lifestyle made me meeting a lot of chicks
So I met Jodie ah, you know that story!

We were touring and Mark disappeared from time to time. Yes, he used to do so when he needed time on his own or if he had a chick. But usually he introduced his chicks to us, like we all did.
Not this time; we only got to know catching him in his room in the early morning hours. We opened his door with Shanes second key; he had to wake up Mark every damn morning.
Surprise! It was Sandy lying in his arms - both still sleeping.

I was hurt - yeah, I know I'd moved on so why shouldn't she?!
But I couldn't stand her in his arms why was I JEALOUS???
"We are friends" I told myself time to time, again and again.

We moved on touring and so the problem was solved - for now.
Mark was happy, he smiled all day long.

After a month he stopped smiling over night.
"Mark, what's wrong?" Shane asked at breakfast.
Mark looked pale and his eyes were red, so he had been crying.
"She broke up with me" he finally sniffed.
- Man, I was relieved (sorry, but it's the truth!)! -
But Shane needed two more days to figure out why. And I mean he is Shane Steven Curiosity Filan you know.
When he told us the reason I got shocked again "She's going to marry another man!"
"What?" Nicky and me yelled.
"Yes, but Mark hang up the phone, he didn't want to know the details"
"For sure" Nicky nodded.

But I wanted to know!
So I returned to my room and called her.
"Hello?"
"Hi Sanz, this is Kee"
"Oh, hi ya"
"So let me know the details for the flowers to send"
"Kee, don't be mean" she sighed.
"Do you know how much you hurt us?"
"Why *us*? I only broke up with Mark"
"Ah, you know what I mean"
"No, Kee. Actually I don't! Tell me!"
"Right, firstly the obvious ones; Mark and me before"
"Why you?"
"Seeing you with Mark!"
"You have a girl!?"
"She's not you!"
"KEE?!"
"What?"
"If you have something to tell me, do it NOW!"
"Ohm, I might want to use your words for it"
"Just tell me"
"You will always be in my heart, baby."
Silence.
"Hello?"
"hmm"
"Sanz?"
"Why didn't you tell me before?"
"I just figured out myself"
"when are you're back in London?"
"A week from now"
"Meet ya in our club. Bye for now."
"But" she hang up without hearing me.

What now? Did she get the message?

The lads and our girls went out to celebrate the End of the tour and we were at *the club*.
Sandy showed up in a dress - uhi! It only covered the main things
Jodie must have noticed me starring at her. She got up, walked over to her and I could only see her talking to San. I picked Nicky for help and we went over to the girls.
Jodie just finished. San looked evil at all of us; than she looked straight into Jodie's face and said very calm "Bird, you're no rival for me." Got up and left us standing right there.
Jodie turned round to me, pale, and asked me "Does she have a chance?"
I didn't know what to say - anything true would've hurt her.
"Silence is agreement" she sniffed. "It's over, Egan." - Jodie never had called me by my last name
"I'm sorry" was all I could say.

So the next days I picked up my stuff at her place and she went to my place in Sligo to get hers.
When I was finally done, I called San.
"What took you so long?" she asked without a hello.
"One thing after the other. I had to sort things off with Jodie first."
"You broke up with her?"
"Hmm"
"What?"
"I need to keep things slow, the media, you know"
"Aha. So you don't sneak over?"
"Only if you open the garden gate now"
"Sure"
"Later?"
"Later"

So I covered myself and went through the garden to her place.
She was sitting in the garden, looking sexy as always and expected me.
As I reached her, she got out of her chair to kiss me hello.
"Hi Babe."
"Hi Boo."
"Looking good."
"Sweety yourself" she grinned.

She got some beer and crackers and we chatted.
"So what now?" she asked when I told her the full story of me breaking up with Jodie.
"Dunno." I shrugged shoulders.
"Dunno? - Aha."
"What?" I asked puzzled.
"I suppose we take things VERY slow"
"Why's that? - I broke up, you"
" only ran away." She finished the sentence.
"You didn't clarify?"
"No"
"San?!"
"Ah, you know me! Things were snowballing much too fast - the whole weeding thing. With the same speed I went in - I went out again"
"So my confession was just an occasion - not the reason?!" I was messed up.
" As I said; let's take things slow - so we can figure out what we want us to be"

Every word sounded so reasonable - but still all I wanted was her in my arms all night long
"So I better go home now" I was about to leave.
"Kee? - Just this once; stay with me tonight" - I sighed with relief.
"I'd love to but you know what'll happen, Dear?"
"Yes, I know" we kissed each other with so much joy and passion

She woke me up before sunrise
"Kee! You've to leave before you get caught" she kissed me again.
"I want to stay!" I moaned still sleepy.
"Come on, Baby. Don't make it harder as it is already! I'd love to have you round much longer, you know"
So I got up and dressed to leave through the backyard again.
She kissed me good-bye and it was like none of us wanted it to happen yet, but we were forced to

At my - cold and empty - place I went back to bed and felt much more alone than ever before.

A few days later Shane called me late at night.
"Ki, Sandy's in Sligo. - We went horse riding today and it was kinda nice. But since dusk she's sitting on the bench under my rooms' window and I hear her crying from time to time. She's not loud but it sounds heart breaking - What did you both do? She didn't want to hear your name at all!" he was upset.
So I told him the full story. " I'm so confused! I want her to be mine but she's right to take things slow after being dumped by Jodie But on the other hand I feel so lost without her!"
"You folks really know how to make things complicated. Why don't you come home and meet her - by surprise - and you two spend time together and see how things turn out?"
"Shay, why do you tell me this? I mean, you and Gil played the game for years"
"But we took one step after the other! - You lads had sex; she was with Mark; you both split up with your partners; had sex again; and now you talk about taking things slow!? How's that supposed to work?"
Man, Shane was right
"Can you pass me over to her, so I can talk with her for a minute?" I asked Shane.
"Sure. Just hold on a sec" I heard him walk outside and talking to her. Than I heard her sniffing my nickname "Kee?"
"Hi Baby. - Why didn't you tell me you're going home?"
"I over-reacted"
"Darling, why do you cry?"
"How do you know?"
" by the sound of your voice - and Shane told me"
"Oh!"
"Don't cry about me and you! - I'll come home tomorrow and we'll meet and sort things off. I can't stand the thought of you suffering"
"Kee-Boo?"
"Sanz?"
"That helped"
"I'm looking forward to have you back in my arms" I sighed.
"I'm looking forward to kiss you again" she whispered.
"Hm-mmmm"
"See ya tomorrow?"
"As soon as I'm there!"
"Good night, Hun."
"Sleep well, Baby"

The next morning I managed to get a flight and called Shane to pick me up at Dublin's Airport.
But when I passed the gate my heart jumped out of my chest! There she was, waiting for me
"Baby!" I was so happy to see her.
"Hi Darling." She whispered when we kissed like old friends (to avoid any sensation for the media).
We went to the car (without any press around) and as soon as we sat inside, she leaned over to kiss me a real hello
"Baby, I missed you so much" I sighed.
"You did?" she only lifted one eye brow.
"I've the feeling, I can't live without you anymore"
"You don't have to - at least for the next time" she grinned at me and kissed me again