- James, Get out of here! I never want to see you again! LEAVE! I shouted and through a vase after my ex boyfriend called James. He ducked in the last second and there was flowers and earth every where on the wall behind him.
- We are not done yet Ebba! He looked at me with evil in his eyes and took two long steppes up to me and closed his fist and hit me right in the face. I fell down of the pain that it caused me, and I moaned.
- That’s your right bitch! He said. And then he kicked me in the stomach when I was lying on the ground. You know that you are mine and that you can never be someone else’s!
- I’m not yours! I said low. Go away or I’ll call the cops! I shouted loader. He gave me one more kick in the stomach and then left.
I dragged myself to the couch covering my stomach, it still hurt.

It hadn’t always been like this. James and I meet when I was in Ireland for vacation with a friend of mine called Eva about a year ago. And we fell in love and I moved to Dublin for 6 months ago. And Eva was moving here in a couple of days. James had been great when I first met him and the first months together had also been great. But then he started to hit me when he got mad. And he got mad when he drank. And when he didn’t aswell, but mostly when he was drunk. I’d been trying to tell him that it’s over. But then he just lost his mind and threatened to kill me if he saw me out with any guy. I hadn’t dared to go out on any date, not because I wanted to anyway. But I was so scared that he’d see me out. He hadn’t and I had no idea how he’d made it but he’d gotten in to my apartment. I’d change my lock but that hadn’t helped. I signed and started to get the dirt from the wall and floor. I’d cleaned it all up after an hour. Then I went to the bath room and washed myself off. I saw I was gonna get another black eye. I worked at a CD store and they’d wondered why it happened that I came to work with a black eye or a swollen lip, he even send me hate mails. But I didn’t feel like caring any more. I was so glad that Eva was gonna move in with me. Then maybe I’d be rid of James.

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6 days later was I picking up Eva at the airport. She looked just like I remembered her with her long hair and green-brown kind of eyes. When she saw me she ran towards me and gave me a long hard hug.
- I’ve missed you so much!! She claimed and hugged me tighter.
- I’ve missed you to! I said and almost started crying.
- I have loads to tell you! She said as we broke the hug. But first I need to get out of here! Okey?
- I can live with that! I said and smiled.
- Good! She said.
We went to out apartment and Eva started to unpack.
- What did you have to tell me? I asked curiously.
- I almost forgot! She said and turned to me.
- What?
- We are going out tonight, Love! She said and smiled with her whole face.
- What? I just said.
- We are going out clubbing! And you don’t have any idea with whom!
- No cous you haven’t told me have you? I said smiling.
- With Westlife! She said and glowed.
- What? I said with my mouth wide opened. How, what, why?
- I meet them at the airport back home in Sweden.
- You did what?
- I have no idea how I manage to tho’! I more or less ran into them! They ran into me actually.
- They did? I said in miss belief.
- Yeah! She claimed. And Mark are gonna call me any minute now and ask if I’m here yet! I promise!
- What ever! I said but I was curious. And then Eva’s mobile phone rang.
- Told you so! She said and answered. Hi there Mark, I’m fine! I just got here. I’m just gonna take a shower! Yeah! Do you want to talk to her? Here she comes. She gave me the phone. They want to talk to you! She smiled cheeky. I’m just gonna start unpack and find myself a towel!
- Hello? I said down the phone.
- Hey! Are you Ebba? A dark Irish husky voice asked me. I recognized it straight away. It was Mark form Westlife.
- Yes, I am! I said. And you must be Mark!
- How did you know? He asked.
- Well Eva told me that it was you.
- Ha, ha! Okey! I get the point! Hang on a sec!
- Sure! I said and smiled.
- Shane! Leave the phone alone! Shane! I heard that he wasn’t too happy.
- I want to talk to your latest flirt! I heard Shane shout teasingly.
- It’s not her! Mark said. It’s her friend!
- Then I must speak too her! Shane shouted. I started laughing. Then I have chance to find a flirt aswell! Give me the phone! I was laughing really hard by now. They sounded so funny!
- Hello? I heard Shane’s voice in the phone. It sounded like he’d won the fight for now.
- Hello! I said and tried not to laugh. But I was giggling quite badly.
- What’s so funny? He wanted to know.
- Nothing! I said and took a deep breath and concentrated hard not to laugh.
- Okey! He said. My name is Shane!
- I’m Ebba! I said. What’s up?
- Nothing much! He said. I’m just fighting Mark here to get the phone. And you?
- Not that much! I said and smiled. I’m just watching Eva unpack.
- Oh, so fun! He said cheeky. Will you come out with her tonight?
- I’m not sure! I said seriously.
I didn’t want James to see me out. I though inside. But I couldn’t turn down Shane now could I? I had had the biggest crush on him since, since a long time back.
- Please?? He pleaded. Mark’s gonna meet Eva out and I’m gonna be all alone? You can’t do that can you? Leave me all alone?
- I don’t know! I said laughing.
- Please? He begged me. Actually right now I felt that he’d have to kill me so I wouldn’t go but I didn’t want to sound that easy.
- I’m coming! I said and smiled.
- Good! He said. I’m looking forward to meet you!
- Me to! I said.
- Good bye now! I think that if I don’t let Romeo here speak to his Juliet or he’s gonna die!
- SHANE! GIVE ME THE PHONE AND SHOUT UP! I heard Mark scream.
- Um, bye! Shane said and giggled.
- Hello? Mark asked me.
- It’s Ebba here! I said. I’m gonna catch Eva before she hit the shower okey?
- Good! He said calm. Was Shane good to you or do you want me to kill him? He asked as I walked towards Eva’s room.
- No don’t kill him because of me! I said.
- Okey. He said a bit low. But can’t you please just say yes so I have an excuse?
- Not this time! I said and laughed. Here she is! I said and gave Eva her phone.
- Thanks! She said and smiled.

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- You look great! Eva told me when I was looking in the mirror.
I was wearing a pair of low cut black tight trousers and a red tight top. I was looking quite good I though. I’d put on some make up and put back my hair.
- So do you! I said to her and she smiled.
- I hope so!
She was wearing a black skirt and high heels and a purple quite low cut top.

Then the door bell rang and I jumped.
- They are here! Eva said smiling. Do you want me to get it? She asked me.
- If you feel like it! I said and looked at her.
- I’m on my way! She said and ran to the door and I was walking after her.
- Hey! She said as she opened the door.
And there were two gorgeous guys. One with dark brownish black hair and blue eyes that was fixed on Eva and one that also had dark haired that had hazel green eyes but they were amazing! They dazzled like stars. He looked at Eva but then looked around in the room and his eyes staid on me.
- Hey there! He said. You must be Ebba!
- Yeah! I am! I said and smiled at him. I saw that Eva and Mark shared a hug and then she introduced me to him.
- Mark this is Ebba! My great friend that I live with at the moment! Shane was already next to me and gave me a big hug.
- Hey there! I said and hugged him back.
- Hey yourself! He said. You look stunning! He looked at me up and down, and I blushed.
- Thank you. I smiled a little to him and shook hands with Mark.
- Are you all ready to go? Eva asked as she took her jacket on.
- I’m just gonna get my jacket! I said and reached for it but Shane grabbed it before me.
- Is this the one? He asked and held it so I could put it on.
- Yeah, thank you! I said and he helped me to get it on.
- Then let’s roll! Mark said and grabbed Eva’s arm and led her out the door.
- Let’s go Ebba! Shane said and hold the door opened for me.
I looked the door and we were on our way to a fancy night club that I hadn’t visited for ages.

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- What do you want? Shane asked me as I sat down next to Eva in the bar.
- I can take a Martini Rose! I said and Shane nodded and went to buy my drink and with Mark that was gonna buy Eva hers.
- He likes you! Eva said as I looked at Shane’s but as he walked away.
- Huh? I said and turned to Eva.
- I saw that! She said and smiled.
- What? I said and tried to look innocent but it failed miserably.
- You were so checking in his but! Eva said.
- Eva! Hutch! I said and hoped that he hadn’t heard her. He was quite long bit from us but you never knew. She was just laughing at me.
- You’re o funny! She said and smiled. But admit it!
- Okey, okey! I did so what? You checked out Marks!
- I was just teasing you! She said and smiled. And here they’re coming back!
- Here you go, Love! Shane said and gave me my drink.
- Thank you! I said and took a sip of it.
- Is it good? Shane asked me.
- Yeah! I said and smiled.

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A few drinks later I was talking to Shane like I’d know him for ages. He was great! Smart, funny, cleaver, articulate, everything I’d ever dreamed. But I hadn’t said a word about James or that he’d beat me up. I though it was better that way.
- Do you wanna dance Ebba? Shane stood up and gave me his hand.
- I’d love to! I said and jumped to my feet and went out to the dance-floor with him.
We started dancing to the rhythm of the music. I loved dancing, I always had. We had really fun messing around. He was a bit stiff but he tried his best. After a little while there came a slow song. Shane grabbed my hands and pulled me closer to him. And put his hands round my waist. I put my arms round his neck and laid my head on his shoulder. I sighed and smelled his aftershave. He smelled so good. I closed my eyes a little and allowed my self to relax.
- Are you having a good time? Shane asked me and I opened up my eyes.
- Yeah. It’s the best thing that has happened to me in ages. I faced him and smiled.
- Good! His eyes dazzled and I drowned in them. We were still dancing but suddenly he stopped. He looked at something over my right shoulder. He had a weird look in his eyes and he looked at me again.
- What? I asked him. Then I felt someone drag me back and I almost fell.
- What are you doing here with him Bitch? I heard that it was James voice and I closed my eyes.
I have had such a great time. And now he was here. Dam! I hoped that Shane didn’t see what he was about to do. I though and opened my eyes as James turned me around. He had my arm in an iron grip and I felt that it was gonna leave a mark.
- I, I. I studded and looked into James brown eyes. They were almost black. He was really pissed I could see it. I could see his hand shake.
- I though that you had learned by now! He screamed.
I could feel everyone’s eyes on us. He raised his hand and I could feel a burning pain across my cheek and I screeched. He raised it again and I hunched.
- What do you think you are doing? I heard Shane’s voice and I slowly opened my eyes again. Shane was standing in between me and James.
- That is my girlfriend that! James said with a cold voice. But I think that you also deserve what she’s getting!
- No! I shouted and throw myself at Shane so he moved.
- Leave him alone! I begged James. Please. It was my fault!
- I know it was, you whore. He said and raised his hand again. But then I saw that Eva throw herself at James arm that almost made him fall.
- Leave her alone! Eva shouted and her face was all red.
- Who the hell are you? He turned to Eva.
And before she had time to act he had punched her face and she hunched. Mark came up behind her and put an arm round her waist. I saw a guard come and tried to take James outside. He was kicking and screaming. Another guard came and helped him out and James was gone. I hadn’t even noticed that Shane was hugging me from behind. I was all stiff and couldn’t move. Everything had happened like in a dream.
- Who the hell was that? Shane asked me and I got back to reality. I more or less fell down on a chair and started to cry. Did he hurt you bad? He took my hand from my eyes and wiped the tears away with his thumbs.
- No, I don’t think so. I whispered.
- Let me see. He looked at my cheek and touched it with his fingers. I moaned a little.
- Ok, that hurt a bit. I said and tried to smile. But he didn’t smile back. I looked down at the floor.
- Does he usually do that? I heard Eva ask.
- What? I asked and faced her.
- Hit you.
- No, he had never done that before. I lied and looked away.
- Then why were you so afraid that he would? She continued.
- I wasn’t! I tried to explain.
- Ebba! She cut me of. I saw it!
I didn’t know what to say. I looked down at the floor again.
- It’s gonna be alright! Shane said.
I mumbled an answer about that it wasn’t.
- Hey! It’s really gonna be! He said again and took his fingers under my kind and made me look in his eyes. I promise! I’m not gonna let anything happened to you. I looked at him in misbelieve. That was exactly the words that Jamie had told me on our very first date.
- Yeah. I said. I need to go. I stood up and was just about to go when Shane grabbed my arm.
- I don’t want him to ruin our evening. He said. I’ll drive you home, okey?
- You don’t have to. I said. I though that James might be there and I didn’t want Shane and him to start to fight.
- I’ll drive you! No problem! He looked at me with a look saying that it was nothing I could do about it.
- Okey! I said. I’ll just get my coat.
- Are you sure that you are alright? Eva asked me and hugged me tightly.
- I will be. I said and hugged her back. I just need some rest, okey.
- Sure. Eva said. I’m coming with you!
- No don’t! I said. You are staying here and have a good time with Mark alright?
- But.
- No buts Eva! I said.
- Yeah, but. She tried again.
- No! I said cutting her off. I’ll be fine! She looked in my eyes.
- I’ll be home soon okey?
- Okey. I said. See you then!
- Bye! Mark gave me a quick hug and I went to get my jacket.

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The drive back to my apartment was quite. Shane didn’t say anything and neither did I. when we got to the door he opened it for me.
- Are you sure that you are alright? He asked me.
- Yeah. I said. Do you want to come in?
- I’d love to!
He followed me inside and we sat down at the couch for a little while.
- Do you want anything to drink? I asked him.
- Yes please. He said and smiled at me.
- What do you want?
- Some coffee would be great!
- Ok! I said and smiled at the first time since in he club when I was dancing with him.
- Good to see you smile again. Shane said. I blushed a little and went out to the kitchen. I put some coffee and waited for it to get hot.
- Do you want some help? I heard a voice behind me. It was Shane.
- No I’m fine. I said.
- Are you sure? He asked and looked in my eyes.
- Yeah! I smiled to him and took out two cups. Or if you want sugar you can take it from behind you there. I turned around to pint but I got really close to Shane instead.
- Were? He looked in my eyes and I started breath heavily.
- There. I pointed at a spot behind Shane.
He bent down towards me and our lips were a centimeter to touch when I backed a step. I realized I really liked Shane. But how could he like me? Especially when he knew about James and all guys were the same. It wouldn’t surprise me if he’d hit me one day aswell.
- Are you alright? He asked me concerned.
- Yeah. I said not facing him. But you better go now.
- What did I do? He asked me. I knew he couldn’t understand no one would.
- Nothing! I said. I just need some time okey. I tried to smile and led him toward the door.
- I’ll call you! He said when I closed the door behind him.
I heard his steps outside when he walked to his car. I went in to my room and lay down on the bed. Why did I do that to Shane? I mean I liked him. But I guess I was scared. That he was gonna hurt me like James. And I didn’t know how he felt about me. Maybe I was just a hopefully one night stand. I knew that he’d broken the engagement with his fiancé about a year ago. The though were spinning around in my head and I was feeling tired.

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I woke up with a huge head ace and all dry eyed the next day. It was ‘cous all of my thinking and crying that I’d done. Eva had come home around 1 hour after Shane left. She didn’t say anything but I’d seen that she really liked Mark. And they were going to meet again. I was happy for her. I stumbled up from my bed and went out in the kitchen. Eva was already sitting there. She had a black eye after last night but she looked happy.
- How are you Muffin? She asked me concerned when she saw me.
- I’m okey. I said and sat down. I’m just so tiered. I reach for a coffee cup and took some coffee. I though that the coffin would help me wake up a little.
- What are you going to do today? Eva asked me.
- Not much I think. I said. I have nothing planned.
- Good! Eva said. Then we are going to the police!
- No! I shouted. We can’t do that he’d kill us!
- No he won’t! Eva looked at me with a look saying it doesn’t matter what you say we are gonna do it!
- But. I tried.
- Good try girl! Eva said. We are gonna go to the police and Mark and Shane are coming with us!
- Shane? I asked and I blushed when I though of how bad I had behaved the nigh before.
- Yeah. They called while you were sleeping and they are picking us up in one hour.
- Oh my God! I look like hell! I said and ran into the shower while I heard Eva laugh at me.
- You’re so funny in the mornings! She teased me when I was running around trying to find myself a clean towel.
- I’m happy somebody is having a good time! I said and I relaxed a little. Everything was going to be great. James was never going to bother me again…

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- Ebba get your but here! We are waiting for you! Eva shouted an hour later.
- I’m coming! I shouted back and from my room. I was trying to get my hair in some kind of pony tale but it just slipped right out again. Hell with this. I said beneath me teeth and walked out the door.
- Hey there! Mark said and looked at me. How are you feeling?
- Hey your self. I said and tried to smile to Shane. But he just avoided my eyes. I’m okey. I continued but my smile faded a bit.
- Shall we go then? Shane said and we walked out.
I locked the door behind me and we were on our way. I was sitting in the back with Shane and Eva was sitting in the front with Mark. They were talking and laughing. But Shane didn’t say anything.
- How are you? I said trying to break the silence.
- It’s alright. He said and looked out the window.
I felt really guilty. I mean I liked him. But I was so afraid that he might hurt me like James. And now I had ruin if there would ever be a chance between us. I glanced over at Shane when he didn’t see it. He was still quiet and looked as he concentrated very hard on the environment outside the window. I felt like kicking myself. Why had I done that? Why had I pushed him away?

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After we had been to the police and field a report, I felt better and Shane was also in a better mood. We were sitting at a café in Dublin and Eva and Mark was talking away. I still didn’t dare to look Shane in the eyes. I still felt really guilty about everything.
- What do you say Ebba? Shane asked me. I hadn’t heard a thing that he had said.
- Sorry I didn’t hear. I said and blushed. But it felt good that he talked to me again.
- Do you feel like be in our next video together with Eva and three other girls? We’re one short, and I wanted to ask you.
- Yeah, sure. I said and smiled with my whole face. I’d love to. When?
- In a weeks time. He said and his face lightened up.
- WooHoo! Eva said and smiled at us.
- Good. Mark said and winked at Shane.
We talked a bit more about what the video was gonna be about and it seemed to be that Westlife and a girl their lover, when I heard that I was walking on clouds again.

We staid in the diner for another hour just talking. And finally was Shane talking with me again. And I just loved it, he had such a beautiful mouth, especially when he smiled or talked. Witch he did both now.

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The next day Eva went out with Mark again. It seemed impossible to keep them apart. I though it was so sweet. Mark came around noon picking her up and she looked beautiful.
About 30 minutes after they had gone the phone rang.
- Hello it’s Ebba. I answered it.
- Hey bitch. I heard James in the other end.
I hang up and didn’t know what to do. I felt like a trapped animal as I walked around in circles in the living room and I jumped high when the door bell rang, just a few minutes after the phone had rang. I walked slowly up to the door and looked through the window. I say dark brown hair and I couldn’t breathe. But then I saw the hazel green eyes and understood that it was Shane. I flung the door opened and throw myself in his arms. And cried my heart out. I didn’t know for how long we stood there with me clanging to his shirt and he petting me on the head whispering that it would be all right. When I got control over my emotions again and stooped crying. I looked up at him and I saw in his eyes. There was nothing but caring and love in them. I couldn’t get it.
- Sorry! I said embarrassed.
- That’s ok. Shane said and laid a hand on my shoulder, lets get in and you can tell me what’s wrong.
We got in and I went to the bathroom and washed my face and went out and sat down next to Shane in the sofa. I could se that he was a bit wet on the shoulder that I had cried at before. He looked at me for a long time.
- What have happened? Ha asked me.
- James called. I said and looked at the floor.
I felt that he rapped his arm around my shoulder. And I laid down my head on his shoulder and I felt more safe then I had done in I didn’t know how long. I could feel his chest go up and down as he was breathing. Then he leaned forward and kissed my hair.
- It’s gonna be okey. He said and rocked me slowly.
- Yeah. I said and looked up at him.
He leaned forward again and our lips touched and he kissed me softly on the lips. He just took my breath away. I had never been kissed like that before. His hands started to wander and he took my top off.

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- I promise you. Shane whispered in my ear. I’ll never let him hurt you again, never! He caressed my cheek.
We were lying in my bed and I had told Shane everything that James had done to me, everything. He’d been furious at James. And he said that he hoped that the cops got him soon so he’d go to prison, even if it was just a little while, but then he might just leave me alone. I didn’t think so but I didn’t say that. I didn’t want to ruin this moment. I was falling so hard for Shane I didn’t know what to do.
Then his mobile phone rang.
- Excuse me a sek! He said.
And jumped from the bed and grabbed the phone that was in his trousers that was lying at the floor next to the bed
- Hello it’s Shane. He said. It’s great. Ok. Yeah. What? That soon? He didn’t look to happy about what the person in the other end said. Ok. I understand. Bye!
- Who was that? I asked and rapped myself in my blanket.
- It was my boss. Shane said. We need to go away tonight cous some award thing in Germany.
He stooped and looked at me.
- We’ll be back in two days. He said.
- Okey. I said.
- Come on! He said and a smile started to grow in his face. He looked like a kid that was thinking of doing something forbidden.
He jumped up at the bed and started tickling me and I was laughing so hard I almost started crying.
- Stop it! I screeched when I got some air.
- Ok. Shane said and kissed me.
- What was that for? I asked him.
- Well I wanted to see you smile. He said.

We staid in bed for several hours; talking, cuddling and just spending time with each other. But when Eva got home with Mark they couldn’t stop laughing at us, they got in when me and Shane were talking and what they tough was the funniest bit was that we just had meet for real and just couldn’t be without each other as Mark said.
We ate some dinner that Eva and I ordered by phone. It was pizza. Then Shane and Mark had to go to Germany. I had tears in my eyes. It all felt a bit weird, I mean I had just met him and I already loved him so much. It was a bit scary. And the fact that I though that it was scary that he wouldn’t be there. That was even scarier.

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- Eva I miss him! I shouted 2 days later when Eva and I were out shopping.
- I know! Eva shouted back. I miss Mark aswell!
We felt a bit sorry for our self and each other and went in to a café to drown or sorrows in some coffee and something sweet. I ordered a latte and a chocolate muffin.
- Talk to me. Eva said.
- I miss him so much it is scary. I said and looked down in my coffee cup.
- Yeah. Eva said. I remember a few years back when you said that you missed him. Remember that?
- Yeah. I said at the memory.
- We wanted them to come to Gothenburg and everything. That was two years ago. She looked seriously at me. Remember that I said that I though you’d meet and everything? And what my card showed?
- Yeah. I said and smiled. But I still don’t really believe in that.
- I know. She said and laughed. But I was right weren’t I?
- Yeah. I said.
- And now you miss him even more.
- Yes. I answered. And he won’t be home from Germany for another couple of days!
- Yeah. She said think full. Let’s have a girl’s night in! She said.
- What? I asked.
- Come on! Let’s go and buy some wine and rent a sob movie!
She grabbed my arm and dragged me out from the café. I though I saw a shadow of someone that I knew. But I shook my head and he was gone.

We went in and bough a bottle of wine and went and rented something that was called the best sob story after titanic.

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That night someone had called me like 3 times and hung up when I answered. It was really scary but I hadn’t told Eva.
Round 3 am it rang again. I was a bit scared when I looked at my cell phone. It had just rung at the other one so far. It stood Shane calling and my face lid up with a big smile.
- Hello. I whispered down the phone.
- Hey, love. It’s Shane.
I felt so god when I heard his voice.
We talked for 3 hours just talking about everything and anything. He said that they video shout was gonna be in a month instead but that he was gonna be home on Friday and that we could spend some time together if I wanted to that was. Witch I of cores wanted. He was so adorable.

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Now it was Friday and I was waiting for Shane at the airport together with Eva who was waiting for Mark. It was a bit of a secret that they were coming and there were no fans there. Nicky, Bryan and Kian were still in Germany. I was standing outside the entrance and the wind was blowing in my hair. I was wearing some new clothes that I had bough they day before. I had missed Shane a lot, but it was easier when I know when he was coming home.
I was deep in my though when I felt some hands round my waist from behind. I spun around and looked into the most beautiful hazel green eyes in the world. And I got a kiss from Shane’s perfect mouth.
- I missed you so much. He said and held me close.
- I missed you to. I said.
I felt a bit silly for missing him as much as I had done. And I know that it was gonna be easier, but that love grows bigger and stronger when we were apart. We stood there hugging for ages when we heard some one cough behind us. It was Eva and Mark.
- Are you gonna stand here long? Eva asked.
- I don’t know. Shane answered. But I think that Ebba haven’t seen my home so I’m thinking of giving her a tour. He smiled wide and I knew he wasn’t thinking of showing me the house.
- Yeah. Eva said pretending to be serious. Yeah. Well have a good time and look for dust rats Ebba!
She winked at me and I blushed.

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- I never thought I’d say this again. Shane started. We were lying in his bed, I hadn’t been on any house tour just yet. And he was touching my hair. I love you. He said seriously and I was so stunned I kissed him.
- I love you to. I said and laid my head on his shoulder.
I knew that he’d broken up with Gillian a year ago and it had seemed that he hadn’t found any girlfriend after that. It felt a bit spooky that he’d said that so soon after we meet. But that was how I felt, but it did sound like a bad fan fic. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

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- I’ve got a surprise for you. Shane whispered in my ear when I had gotten dressed.
The day before we didn’t go out from bead, we watched some TV and ate in the bed, but mostly we just spent time in each others arms.
- What are you up to now? I asked him curiously.
- You’ll se. He said.
It was Sunday and it was a bit cloudy outside. But I felt so great. I loved Shane with all my heart and there was nothing that could stop us.
Shane blindfolded me and we got into his car and went for a drive. I had no idea where we were going. He didn’t say much either. It seemed like he wanted it to be a secret, and if he’d say anything he’d spoil the surprise. I tried to make him to say it just to tease him. But he was quite as a stone.
After a while the car stopped.
- Stay there. He said. Don’t move.
- Okey. I said and smiled to myself.
He came to my said of the car and opened and led me out.
- Can I se? I asked him.
- Not yet. He said and I could here the smile in his voice.
Then he took the blindfold of me and the light stroke into my eyes. When I could se clearly I saw that we were at a farm or at least a place that there were horses. I looked confused at him. I mean I couldn’t even ride!
- Eva said that you didn’t know how to ride. He said and had a big smile on his face.
- No I can’t. I said.
- Well, come then! He took my hand and led me into the stable. I’m gonna teach you!
- What?

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That was a long but great day. I was a bit scared first. But Shane helped me out. It was so cute. We rode in a paddock for a while and it wasn’t that hard. I had ridden a few times before and I knew some of the grounds. Shane was really happy about that. He asked a guy something in Irish and he smiled widely at me. A few minutes later the guy came with a horse to Shane. Saddled and ready. He had a backpack for him aswell.
- Come on. Shane said. I’ll show you around!
- Okey. I said and went a bit scared.
We rode out and just slowly walking around. It was really peaceful and it was just wonderful. When we got to a little stream Shane told me to sit of and he took his backpack and I saw that he had a blanket and some food with him.
- Here! He said and patted the blanked next to him.
I sat down and looked at him for a while. He just smiled and took up a box that was there were strawberries in and he started to feed me.
- You’re just the sweetest thing! I said and laughed at him.
We had a lovely pick nick for a couple of hours then it got dark and we had to go back to the stable.

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All that week Shane did those small trips and did these lovely things for me. I couldn’t understand how he came up with everything! I hadn’t though of James once. And there was no paparazzi’s that was hunting me like they were hunting Mark and Eva.
But when Shane, Mark, Eva and I were out having dinner, there was waiting 20 paparazzi’s outside the restaurant. I got a bit scared and didn’t know what to do. Shane rapped an arm round my shoulders.
- Can you please leave me and my girlfriend alone? He said and I blushed.
- Yeah. Mark said. My girlfriend and I are getting a bit tired of this.
- Is that a comment? One of them asked Shane. Is this your new girlfriend?
- Yes. He said sure of himself. If she wanna be my girlfriend that is.
He looked me in the eyes and looked like 10 year old kid mixed with a puppy. I never though that this actually would happen, so I kissed his perfect lips and whisper yes against them.
- There you have your answer folks! Mark said and smiled at the paparazzi’s who couldn’t believe there luck.
- Yeah. I said a bit loader so everyone could hear.
- Thank you. Shane whispered in my ear.

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In the next mornings paper’s me, Shane, Mark and Eva were on the front page. Westlife’s new Swedish girlfriends it stood. I couldn’t believe it. It wasn’t that bad reaction as I may have thought. But there was some hate mail send to Shane. I read one of the letters and almost started crying. But I think there was more then I knew cous Shane hid it. But there was something special with that letter. It seemed familiar in some way then it stroke me. It reminded me of those hate mails I’d gotten from James. And I remembered that they still hadn’t coughed him. I dropped the letter and Shane came in the room.
- What is it Sweetheart? He asked me.
- James. Was all I could say and I pointed at the letter.
Shane became furious he called the police and told them about everything, again. They said that they were gonna do they bets they could to catch him as soon as possibly. I had even heard Shane say that he was worries that he was gonna try to hurt me again.

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The next day Shane went out with me in TV. Now the whole world knew that we were a couple. He also talked a bit about James. It was a bit scary. But we pulled it through.

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A few days later it was time to shoot Westlife’s new video. Eva and I were still in it.

Okey, Ebba was it? A Man called Steve who was the director for Westlife’s new video asked me.
Yeah. I said.
You sit down there. He pointed at a chair next to a round table in this café set. And you’re going to be sitting next to Shane and be talking and you can touch each others hands and maybe even kiss. Just act that you’re really, really in love ok?
Okey. I said. That’s not gonna be that hard. I said and smiled at Shane who was getting some more make up.
I though so. The director said and Shane lid up.
Excellent! Shane said.
That couldn’t be that hard I though. Shane sat down in front of me. The cameras scared me a bit tho’. He looked me in the eyes and took my hands in his and I relaxed.
Good! The director shouted. Now, action!
Shane and I tried to start talking but it took about 10 minutes before I got comfortable and forgot a bout the cameras. We talked for about 10 minutes more and touched each others hand and laughed. It went really good.
CUT! That was great guys! The director said and smiled at us. Let’s get on and do a scene when you’re singing but you’re both sitting there still.
Okey. Shane and I said.
Ready? Shane asked.
Yeah. I said.
Shane started to lip sync and I couldn’t help but laugh at first, it looked a bit silly. But I calmed down and plaid along as god as I could. The song was really cute. It was a bit of a sad love song. It reminded me a bit of Ronan Keating’s If tomorrow never comes, that it was over and he missed her. It was quite beautiful.
Okey. CUT! Steve shouted again. That was great aswell. You can take a few minutes break.
Thank you! I said and stood up and stretched.
Shane came and lifted me up and spun me around.
Se. He said. That wasn’t that hard!
No. I said and he put me down. He gave me a kiss and took my hands and we walked away.
Oops! I heard a voice of the camera men. I got that on tape. He looked a bit sheepish.
That’s ok. Steve said that was good.
Me and Shane laughed and went to the other lads. My cell phone rang.
That’s okey. I said and started digging in my purse. You go and I’ll be right there.
Okey. He said and went up to Kian and Mark.
I got the phone and answered.
Hello it’s Ebba.
Hey you bitch of a gay. I heard James hard voice in the phone.
What do you want? I asked him and all my good mode ran off me. Leave me alone!
You see I can’t do that. He said with a soft voice. You’re mine. I was just about too hung up the phone when he said: don’t you dare hang up on me he sounded deadly calm and I didn’t like it, a chill went down my spine when he continued. What would you say if your boyfriend didn’t make it home tonight?
What have you done? I asked him terrified.
Nothing. He said. Nothing yet. But accidents happened so easy you know. Especially with these pop-stars.
James. I whispered.
Leave him or I’ll gonna kill him and make you watch it! He hung up.
James. I whispered again. I started shaking.
I looked up and saw Shane sitting at the table again. Pretending to be alone and sad. How was I gonna tell him about the call from James?

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Shane had no idea what was going on and I tried smiling at him, I saw that he relaxed and got ready for the next scene. He looked really good where he was sitting, but he looked really sad and lonely. I could almost se tears in his eyes. I looked around and decided to go outside to get some air and come up something to say to Shane. I mean I couldn’t see him no more. James would kill him. I found the back door and went out in the fresh air.
I wondered when you were gonna come here. I heard a deadly calm voice.
I spun around and started shaking. There was James. I spun around the fastest I could and throw myself at the door, I got it opened but then James was already behind me and closed it.
You’re not getting anywhere before we have straitened things out. He said cold as ice.
Okey. I said and tried to breathe normally. I could feel the tears burn inside my eyes.
Listen. He said and twisted me round so I faced him. You’re never gonna se that pussy to singer again. He said and I nodded. What else what I supposed to do? And you’re gonna take back the charges you made against me or I’m gonna find him. I kept nodding. I was so terrified. I know you’re a good girl and will understand that. He said and touched softly my cheek, I turn my head away, but what I felt of doing was bite his finger off. Then he slapped me across my face. Don’t be so damn spoiled, bitch! He said and took my hand to my cheek that was burning. Go away and break it up with that singer of yours! He said and opened the door for me.
My whole body was shaking. I went in to the ladies and started crying my eyes out. I didn’t know what to do. I looked around me and washed my face of. I had to break it up with Shane. I had to, bitter tears rolled down my cheek. I had to so James wouldn’t kill him. What was I thinking being Shane’s girlfriend? Of course James would try to kill him. We found out that Shane had to do another lonely shoot the next day to video. But then we went to his house.

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Later that night I was at Shane’s having dinner. I had to break it up and I had been quite all night. Shane knew something was wrong I could see it in his eyes.
We need to talk. I told him after a while.
I know something is wrong. Sa Shane like I guessed he knew me far to well. Come on.
We sat down in the living room and he held my hand. I looked in his eyes and all I could see was love, caring for me, a flame that James would blow out for good if I kept seeing him. That couldn’t happen. I decided, I need to break it up and I needed to do it now, tonight.
Shane. I started and took my hand back. I need to talk to you.
Yeah. Shane said. Tell me what’s wrong what ever it is we can work it out.
Now we can’t. I said with a calm voice. That’s the problem.
What? He said looking confused.
You see I don’t feel anything anymore. I said. Not when you kiss me, not when we make love. Shane, I can’t go on like this. I want to break up.
The pain I saw in his eyes I knew would hunt me forever. I saw he started crying, tears rolled down his cheeks. He looked at me like I had broken his heart. Witch I knew I had.
What are you saying? He said teary eyed.
I almost started to cry, but I knew I couldn’t then he’d know that I was lying.
I don’t love you I don’t feel anything at all for you. I said.
Can I kiss you? He said looking in my eyes, fully determined to change my mind.
What? I said.
Let me kiss you and if you don’t feel anything then it’s it, okey.
I was shaking, I didn’t know if I could do it. But I had to, to convince him.
Yes. I said.
He leaned forward and kissed me. It took my breath away. I loved him so much it hurt, why he had to make it all so hard. He’d never kissed me with that passion and love before. When we broke the kiss I made a face in disgust.
I don’t love you. I said cold and stood up.
You can’t mean that! Shane said crying again.
I do, and I want you to leave me alone. I never want to se you again.
I didn’t look more at Shane. I stood up and walked out. It was the hardest thing I had ever done in my life.

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When I got home I had a message on the machine.
Hey it’s James. I hope that you did what I told you or your little boyfriend is getting in to troubles. Give me a call when you get home.
I took up the phone and pressed the numbers with my hand shaking.
Hey. James said in the other end.
Hey. I said. I broke up with Shane and tomorrow I’m going to the cops okey? I said. I didn’t want to talk to him.
Seems really good. I could hear how much he loved himself. But one more thing. He said.
What? I asked.
I don’t want you talking to that girl that hit me. Eva’s her name I think.
I felt shocked. He took away my boyfriend that I loved with all my heart and no he took away my friend aswell.
Or I can come and visit her.
No, no! I said. I will! I promise!
Okey good. He said. I’m coming over tomorrow to make sure that you’re not lying!
Okey. I hung up.
I hated him so much!

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The next day I went to the police and I said I wanted to take the charge back. It took some time, but it worked. I breathed, so now he wouldn’t hurt Shane. Not for a little while anyway, but it was enough for me to buy time. Now I had to go to Eva.
I found her at the place where we shot the video the day before. She was there with Mark. I didn’t go in, but I could se her through the window. I called her and told her to get out.
Hey Ebba. She said. What did you with Shane? He’s a wreck! I felt so guilty.
I broke it up. I said.
What? Eva said chocked. But don’t you love him?
No. I said cold.
Yes you do. Eva said. I can se the pain in your eyes. What’s wrong? Is it James?
No! I said a little to fast. It’s not. I just don’t love him no more. And who are you for judging me for that?
I just.. Eva started.
I don’t believe it! I yelled. I don’t wanna se you either. Leave me alone and piss off. You can get your things from my house. But move in to Mark’s or something!
What? Eva looked even more chocked. I -I can’t do that!
You have no choice! I said and spun around and walked away.
For that I deserved an Oscar, for that and for last night with Shane.

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Later that day Eva came and picked up most of her things. I didn’t say a word to her. She was hurting I knew that. And I could understand why. She gave me a tape before she left. Or she throw it on the couch next to me. When she closed the door behind me I almost started crying again. I took the tape and up it in the VCR.
I heard the tones of Westlife’s song. It was the new video. I saw me and Shane laughing, having a good time and after words him alone, and crying this time, looking lonely. When the video was over the camera was on.
You looked really sad there Shane. I heard Nicky say and dunked him in the back. His yes were still full of tears.
What is it Mate? Kian said.
Ebba broke up. He said.
No you are kidding? Mark said.
No. he said. I love her god damn it!
We know! What happened? Bryan asked.
I don’t know he said. Then it ended.

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I was lying at the couch hanging on to a pillow watching the video over and over again.
Then I heard the door opened, I looked up in hope that it was Shane. But it was James. I wanted to run, but I had no power in my legs to move.
Hey there. He sat down next to me. He put his hand on my thigh.
He yourself I said and moved my leg.
Now why do you have to be like that? He smiled at me.
Leaning forward trying to kiss me, but I stood up.
Don’t touch me! I said.
Oh, I will. He said.
One second he was holding me down at the floor trying to take my clothes of.
You have no idea how much I was enjoying seeing breaking up with that guy, and when you shouted at Eva. Oh my God.
I tried to fight him of but he was too big, too strong and way tot drunk.
I was kicking, screaming, biting and hitting, but I couldn’t get him of me.

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Get of her! I heard someone scream and I looked up. There was Shane. And a bunch of polices. I looked at him with joy and love in my eyes.
What? Was all James said when three police officers dragged him of me and Shane got to me rapping me in a blanket.
Shane. I whispered. I love you.
I know you do. He said.

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Now it was 5 months after the incident with James. Shane had explained that he though I was lying and when he saw me talking to Eva at the video shoot he talked to Eva and then he knew that something was wrong. And when he got the police office they had told him that I had dropped the charge he had taken some police officers with him to my house. And so they found me and James.
Now I was the happiest girl on the planet. Shane was standing next to me. We were at a beach with the other guys and Eva. There was a new video shot. It was night and the stars glistened in the sky and the moon was shining bright.
Oh my God look at the stars. I said to Shane. He smiled with his whole face and go down on one knee.
What about this star? He asked and opened a small box with a ring with a diamond glittering inside.
Shane! I said.
Do you wanna merry me? He asked.
Yes! I said and he put the ring on my finger. He lifted me up spun me around and kissed me.
I love you. He said.
I love you to! This will be a nice video! I laughed at him.
We smiled widely at the other guys cheering screaming at us.

~The End~