13.02.2004

"Hey nixtaa!" "Hey shay what’s up? " "Gil and I want you and geo to come with us to the park in Sligo. We want to have a picnic with you two!" "well great, wait a minute I’ll ask her!" "Ohh god, Nicky, why have you such a sexy voice?? Why are you looking so cute" Shane was thinking. "Shay are you completely crazy?? You think that nicky is cute and sexy?? What’s up with you" he asks himself. "Shay?" "Yeah?" "We’ll come in two hours. All right?" "Yes, but Nix, don’t drive so fast! I will see you again mat!" shane was laughing. "Yeah, don’t worry, you know that I’m a good driver, do you?" "I know I know. Well see ya!" Shane hangs up the phone and going to Gillian into the living room. "They will come!" "Ohh great, geo and I will go shopping!" "But what’s about the picnic?" "Shay?? You and Nicky can wait for us. We will hurry up. Promise." She stands up and kissed her Shay dashing. He stare out of the window and thinks about his raltionship to Nicky. "he is my very best friend, but is this a reason to miss him so much and stare at him all time when I am with him??? Or can’t live a day without hearing his voice or to see him??" "Sweety? What’s up?" Gillan was looking at him. "Nothing babe, nothing! I only thought about the picnic and what we should buy!" "What do you think about Ice-cream?" "Babe we have February, It’s to cold." "But I want to have ice cream!" She shouted sulky. "What are about vanilla tea and cheese and wine???" "No shane I want to have ice cream with the picnic!" "We have to look, what’s on offer at the supermarket." "Ohh my god. Gil you get on my nerves! Nicky! Why aren’t you here with me??? Why I am alone with this witch?" Shane went out and they drive to the town, to buy something for the picnic. Gillian was happy about the shopping tour with Georgina, because she knew that shay would give her his credit-card and she could buy what she wants. She smiled nasty.

Georgina and Nicky were sitting in his new Ferrari and were driving to Shay. Nicky sings aloud, he had his new CD in the player. "Nico, cant’ you stop singing and turn on the radio?? I hate this kind of music you know." "geo, shut up! Well this is my car and I can sing how loud and what I want" he stared at the street. "Nicholas?? Are you sitting on your ears??? I can’t hear this song anymore. I am your wife, please turn off the CD!" Georgina was angry. But Nicky was happy to see Shane again and so he won’t go badly his temper by his wife.

After an hour Shane and Gillian came back from their shopping. Shane was taking the bags, while Gillian sat down in the couch, and turn on the TV. "Well, go shopping with you means stress pure. " Shane looked at her "YOU always run from one shop to the other, YOU have to looked in every magazine for a picture of them and YOU always whine that you look so terrible at the pics. And I only have to repeat and repeat that you look so wonderful. When it is so much stressed, than go away and don’t came to me anymore! Shay what’s up, you think that your wife should go???" He shakes his head to get his thoughts clear. Than he opened one of the bags and found a magazine on the top. There was a picture of Westlife. He looked at nicky. Shane has laid his hand on nickys shoulder and nicky was smiling so cute. He has his typical dog puppy look. Shay loved this look, and he can’t be angry with him when nicky looked like on this pic. He touched nickys mouth at the magazine. His lips looked so soft and sweet. He stared at nickys water-blue eyes.

Suddenly the house bell was ringing. Shane wake up out of his daydreams and opened the door. Nicky was standing outside and now he was drop into shanes armes. Shane was so happy to see him and whirl him around in circles. "nixtaaa! Why are you there so fast???" he looked at nicky like a strike dad. "Well the road was free and" there was no police." Nicky smiled impish. "Where is Geo?" "She is sitting in the car she is sulky, because I have sing all the time." "But you have such a wonderful voice? Why is she so aggressive??" "I don’t know!" Nicky and Shay were looking to the car and than they started to laugh! "Well mate, came in, Gil, Gina is there! She is sitting in the car" Gillian jumped up and greets Gina, who is coming out of the car. They kissed once on the right and once on the left. "Well, Gina I think we should go shopping. Because with Shay you can’ go shopping more than ten minutes." She complains about his husband. Gina nodded and gives shay the hand. "Well I think the ladies go shopping and we should go for a walk, and we prepare the picnic, aren’t we nix??" "Yeah! I think so" So the two girls were driving to town to go shopping and Nicky and shay, have to prepare a blanket and the food.

After some times, Nicky and Shay were laying into the grass and nicky was asleep. "Ohh Nicky, you look like an angel. Why are you doing this to me??? Why darling why??" Shane bend bow to nicky and looked into is face, with nickys sweet mouth, which shane wants to kiss only one time, with nickys cut bangs. Shane roams his hair and wants to remember every little think of nickys face. Nicky wakes up und and opened his eyes. He straight looked into Shanes hazel-greens. "Have you sleep good?" shay ask and lay on his back again. "Yes!" "I have dreamed of you shay, and it was so amazing. We were in love. Why can’t this be the reality? I love you so much honey!" Nicky was in love in Shane for five years now. But he can’t tell that to him, because he doesn’t want to disturb their friendship. Nicky looked at Shane, his eyes were close and he was lying at his belly. Nicky don’t think very much, but sat on Shays ass and began to massage him. Shane opened the eyes and was shocked. Nicky was sitting on his ass!!!! But he enjoy the massage so much, that he has to suppress a loud groan.

After a while, Nicky stopped and smiled at him with his dog puppy look. "All right, babe." Nicky smiled again. Now shane was sitting on nickys ass, and massage him. Nicky enjoy it as well. "Nix?" nicky grunt. "Can you please take off your shirt? You and feel so much because of your shirt." Nicky nodded and throw his shirt away.

Shane’s eyes grow bigger. He can touch his love with his hands on his naked back. He can’t believe it. He looked at Nickys sweet hairs in his neck and his strong shoulders. "You have a tattoo?" nickys face coloured red. "Yeah! I have made it in germany, two or three month ago. Do you like it??" "Hmm, I don’t like tattoos very much but this one is just like you. It’s very cool." Shane smiled. It looks very good. He runs his hand over the tattoo. Nicky gets gooseflesh. "Is it too cold?? Do you want to have your shirt back??" "No way Shay, it’s not cold. Well tomorrow it’s Valentines Day. The day of love, the day for lovers and for those who wants to be loved by someone. "I will send you a cart like every valentine day, since five years"" Nicky thought, shane was threw away all his cards, but since five years Shane keeps one very special card. It was written by an anonym writer. She only signs with "the person, who will ever love you". Shane was every year so impressed by these cards, that he keeps this. "I hope I will get one from a special person!" Shane said. "From Gillian?" "No she can be where she is!" nicky looked at shane shocked. "Do you have a fight?" "Well she gets’ on my nerves, with her kind to talk, to walk, to speak with others about me and so one. I don’t like her as I do three or four years ago. But I’ll have to married her!" "Why?" "Because my parents want that! They think she is Mrs. Right for me. But I am in love with someone else." "Oh, well it’s the same like me and gina." Shane looked at him. "You also ".!" "Yeah!! But I loved my family so much that have done this." A single tear is falling over nickys face. Shane takes his chest and wants to wipe this tear away. But than they heard a loud screaming "Sweeties!!! We are back!!" "nicky?? Why are you turning off your shirt? Please put it on again. I don’t want that anybody is seeing you laying here without a shirt." Gina shouted. "Shay has massaged me." Nicky changed from the friendly and happy boy in a boy who is in a bad mood with a hard face and no emotions in it. Shane wondered but he said nothing. Gillian shows him what she has bought: new top, new trousers, a new bag, some earrings, a necklace and some terrible high shoes. "oh my god, she has spent so much money today likes me in two weeks. I think I don’t love her anymore. I love nicky. Every thing she does makes me feed bad and gets on my nerves. But with nicky I am happy and I am relaxed" "Shaaaa-haaane?!!" "what?" "I have ask you, whether you want to go bowling with me an Gina?" "Don’t you want to with, Nicky???" Shane asks. "No, I’ve a headache! And I can’t bowl." "Well, I can show it to you. Please come with me and the girls. "Shane was looking so cute at him, that Nicky couldn’t say no. "But we have to drive home tonight!" he replies. "Well, you and Gina can sleep at our guestroom. We have one near our bedroom. Please do it for me!" Shane begs. "All right mate. You have convinced me of your idea." Shane smiled at him and whispered in his ear: "No panic Nicky, I can bowl with you in a team. Together we are invincible." Nicky smiled back and nodded. "Shay! Can you give me the vanilla tea please?" Shane looked surprised. But he smiled again and hand him out the pot. Their Hands touched softly. Nicky look away and smiled bashful. Shanes face turned red, and he also looked at the grass.

Hours later, after a long picnic and many thought of Shane and Nicky that their Girls were so stupid. They laughed about girls, who were going for a walk in the park, they are talking about stars and who has sex with whom and nicky and shane can only sit beside from them and stay in their daydreams. Nicky was looking at his watch. "I think we have to finish the picnic, when we want to go bowling!" Shane looked relived at him and began to pack the plates, knifes spoons and forks into the basket. Gina and Gillian only sat beside and looked how their boys work. Suddenly it began to rain. Big, heavy drops are falling down. Nicky and Shane ran to the cars and are waiting for the girls.

When they arrived at Shanes House, Nicky and Shane take the basket into the house. Gina and Gilly are going to have a shower and to style the hairs for going bowling. "Nixtaa, what’s up?? You are so absent today?" "Mate I don’t know. I think I’ll have to make a decision." "What for a decision?" "I think I have to leave Gina, because I felt in love with some one else." Nicky swallow. Shane stares at him. "If you think this would be right. You have to done it. But Nicky, you have to think about this twice. She really loved you." "NO that’s the problem, she only loves my money. She loves Nicky from Westlife not the boy Nicholas Byrne." His eyes began to sparkle. Shane hugs his best friend and presses him at his body. Nicky cries. Shane never sees him crying, but now they are standing into the kitchen and Nicky was crying in his arms. Gina was screaming form upstairs. "Well we want to go in a half hour. I think this have to last for you to style." Nicky was wiping away his tears and he and shay are going to have a short shower. Nicky went into the bathroom. He goes under the shower and sing a little bit. "Oh nicky, your voice turns me on" Shane stands outside the bathroom and changes his clothes.

"We started as friends
But something happened inside me
Now I'm reading into everything
But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby

You don't ever notice me turning on my charm
Or wonder why I'm always where you are

I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long, but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

I've heard you talk about
(Heard you talk about)
How you want someone just like me

But everytime I ask you out
(Time I ask you out)
We never move pass friendly, no no

And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone

I've made it obvious
Done everything but sing it
(I've crushed on you so long but on and on you get me wrong)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song
Yeah...

You are my very first thought in the morning

And my last at nightfall

You are the love that came without warning

I need you, I want you to know

I've made it obvious
So finally I'll sing it
(I've crushed on you so long)
I'm not so good with words
And since you never notice
The way that we belong
I'll say it in a love song

And sing it until the day you're holding me
I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong
I more then adore you but since you never seem to see

But you never seem to see
I'll say it in this love song "

"oh nicky is singing again. I can’t stand it. It sounds so torment." Gina was standing behind shay and looked at the bathroom door. "Well I think he has a great voice. I like it very much. It sounds so ... shy and emotional." Shane think about Nickys voice. Gina was looking at him. "Shay, it’s your turn to go into the bathroom!" nicky was taking him out of this thought. "Yeah!" Nicky stand in front of him, only with a towel on his hips. Water sparkle in his hair and o his body. Shane stares at him. "Well nicky.... i have to go into the bathroom!" "yes, please hurry up Shay. You have to teach me how to bowl." Nicky smiled and looked at shay, which was staring at Nickys body and walk in direction of the bath like in dreams.

Nicky was styling his hair and standing in front of the bathroom. He would ask shay, whether he could borrow him some clothes. He knocks at the door. "Yeah?" "Shay, can i have some clothes???" Shane was shocked. If Nicky opened Shane’s wardrobe he have to see the pic of Nicky and Shane. Shane loved this picture so much that he has taken it on the inside of the door. "Well one moment nix. I will give you some clothes!" Shane went out of the shower very fast and came only with a towel around his hips to Nicky. They went into shays room and try some clothes. In the end Nicky wears tight black trousers and a black shirt with some red flame on it. Shay was wearing nice beige trousers and a simple white shirt, which was a little bit transparent. "Ohh shay you’re so hot in this shirt!!" Nicky can’t let his eyes from Shane. But Shane also stares at Nicky. His beautiful hairs, his strong chest, this tight trouser, where you can see nearly everything. Nicky loved shays black hair so he roams shays hair and said: "I want to have your hairs, the looked so beautiful and ... I can’t describe." He smiled and shays face turned red again.

At the bowling-centre they began to bowl in tow teams. Nicky and shay against gilly and geo! First round Nicky wants to bowl, so shay was standing behind him and takes his hand. Softly he holds Nickys hand in his own and show him how to bowl. Nicky could realize Shane’s breath on his neck, he gets gooseflesh. He likes shays breath so much and he wants to fell this in his face, when shay stands in front of Nicky in order to kiss him softly and than wild and softly again. Nicky stay in his daydreams till, shay leaves his body from Nickys. Nicky turn around and see him, how he kissed gilly. Nicky was sad. "Well he loves gilly very much so i have to be happy, because he is happy". After a while Nicky was very good at bowling now. Shay haven’t stand behind him. He only looks at Nickys nice ass, when he takes the ball or when he bowls.

Two hours later Nicky and Shane were winning the game and they hug each other and Nicky hols Shane so strong and shay holds Nicky so strong. Nicky don’t want to let him go out of his arms and Shane thinks the same way. He fells Nickys face so near and his body so closed to Nickys that he couldn’t believe it. Nickys hairs are falling into Shanes face and his loved how they smell. He loves every little piece of Nicky. When they undone from the other they looked around and can’t find Gina and Gillian anymore. They leave the bowling-centre and went outside. When they went round a corner their breath stopped. They saw Gillian and Georgina in the arms of two big well-looked men. They were kissing the boys vehement and looked imaginary to Nicky and Shane. Shane would run to them to hit the boys but Nicky hold him. "Let this witches go with their ‘cool’ boys. They are no good. Let’s drive!" Shane nodded and shouted to Gillian angrily "Go away bitch I hate you I don’t want to see you again! Take care to leave Sligo!!!!" She only laughed and said superior "Shane, I never loved you!!!! I only want to get famous and get money. And you thought that I love you??? Well you are so a stupid guy!!" "Nicky, me too! Only your money and the fact that you are so famous make me to say that I loved you!" Nicky stare at her and can’t say anything. He takes Shanes hand and turn around. He pulls Shane to their car and drive at home. Shane stares out of the window. "It’s my fault. I thought I loved Nicky and now my wife has gone. But when I loved Nicky, why I am so sad now??? I can’t understand it!! Please god help me! Gillian was only in love with my money, but was I in love with her??? Why do I think that Nicky is sexy and why turns his body me so on. Why why why??? Gillian why and Nicky why??? Will this be happened too if I loved Gillian with all my heart??? And what’s about my feelings about Nicky??" Shane looks into Nickys face, but Nicky stares at the street. His face was unemotional and hard. Suddenly a little smile flits through Nickys face. "Why are you smiling nix?? We have loose our wives now." Asks Shane confused. "Because, now I know what she thinks about me. " Nicky smiles but his eyes were sad. Tears are falling and he trembles. "Nicky, stop the car, please." Nicky steps on the gas pedal. The car stands into the rain and the two boys said nothing. They only looked on the street and think about their wives. "Nicky"" "Yes?" Nickys voice was brittle. "Have you ever loved Georgina?" "Yeah. But since I meet someone special I fell in love with this special person. But this person doesn’t know about my feelings." "Why haven’t you told that to me??? Nix I am your best friend, you know?" "Yes, but " but I will tell it to you if the time has come." He stats the car again and drive slowly along the street. "And what is about Gillian??" "Well nicky, that’s something different. I am in love with someone else too, but I also loved Gill. This I thought anyhow. But now I don’t know" I am worry about the separation but I am also happy that now I can love the other person." Nicky nodded and a few minutes later they were standing in front of Shane’s house.

"Can I sleep in your guestroom??" "Yes, I won’t be alone this night." Silent they leave the car and walk into the house. Nicky walks into the kitchen. "Do you want to have something to drink?" "Yes, please. I want to have some Smirrn off ice." Nicky came into the living room and sat down next to Shane on the couch. "I can’t believe it." Nicky said. Shane nodded and sipped at his bottle. Shane began quiet to cry. "Hey Shay, don’t worry. There are so many persons, who loved you." Nicky hugged Shane and Shane putted his head on Nickys shoulder. Nicky run Shanes back up and down. He roams Shane’s hair and whispered in his ear. "Hush babe, don’t worry please don’t cry. I don’t want to see you cry. Please that makes me sad." Nickys eyes began to sparkle. Tears are falling again and Shane winds his arms around Nicky. After a while they separate and began to laugh. "Well we are two cry-babies. We cry because two witches leave us." Shane smiled. "Let’s go to bed. I am tired." Nicky nodded. They stand up, hugged each other and went to their rooms. Shane stays awake. He thinks about Nicky, who was awake too. Suddenly a lightning lights up his room. Nicky trembles. He was afraid of thunderstorms. Shane stands up. Slowly he opened the door and went into Nickys room. "Nicky, is everything okay??" he whispered. "Y-y-y-yes. Everything is fine!" Nicky lied. He hides under his quilt. Shane strokes his back. "Nicky I know that you are afraid." Nicky turns around and looks straight into Shanes eyes. Nicky lift the quilt and Shane crawl under. He hugged Nicky and arm in arm they fall asleep.

14.02.2004

At 6 o’clock in the morning Nicky wake up. "Today it’s Valentines Day. Shane would get a cart from me like every year and he would throw it away like every year." Nicky sighs. He wants to stand up but now he realized that he and Shane are laying into the bed together and Shanes head is lying on Nickys chest. Nicky roams his own hair. Shanes arm was lying on Nickys belly. Nickys breath becomes faster. His love is laying nearly at him and looks like an angle. Nicky don’t move. He enjoys the feeling of Shane’s hair on his chest and his warm hands on his belly. Suddenly Shane hand move slowly. It plays with Nickys hair under his navel. Nicky closed his eyes. He can’t control himself any longer. He keeps still and listens to Shane’s breath, which he can fell. He lifts his hand and put it on Shanes back. Shane moved and grunts. He snuggles up to Nicky narrower. Nicky smiled. He looks like a baby. He looks so cute and lovely. "I’d like to kiss him, now. No Nicky you can’t kiss him now. Well please only keep still and enjoy the moments." A half hour later Shane moves around. Nicky stands up and looked into his bag. "anywhere here must be the card for Shane. Where is it??" Finally he founds it in his jacket. Slowly he went out of the room and downstairs. Shane, who waked up, wondered. Quiet he also stands up and follows Nicky. Nicky went out of the house. Shane looked out of the window. "He goes to my letterbox. He opened it and put a card in it. It’s a green card with a heart. I must remember." Shane turns around and run upstairs and skips into the bed again. He closed his eyes. Nicky went into the room. He sat next to Shane and strokes Shanes face. "Shany, please wake up. Today it’s Valentines Day!! Shay, don’t sleep any longer." Shane moved and opened his eyes slowly. Nicky smiled and looked at him with his typical dog puppy look. Shane stands up.

After a long breakfast, they went out. The Postman has put three bags of letters next to the letterbox. "Well you have many fans!" Nicky smiled. They carry the bags into the house and pour out. Than Shane went out again and empties the letterbox. Nicky and he sat down in the loads of letters and cards. They opened one after the other and read aloud. One hour later Shane takes a green card with a red nice heart on it. "Nicky listen, this is the card from the special person!

Dear Shane

Everybody’s looking for that something
One thing that makes it all complete
You find it in the strangest places
Places you never knew it could be

Some find it in the face of their children
Some find it in their lovers eyes
Who can deny the joy it brings
When you find that special thing
You’re flying without wings

Some find it sharing every morning
Some in their solitary lives
You find it in the work of others
A simple line can make you laugh or cry

You find it in the deepest friendships
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You’ve found that special thing
You’re flying without wings

I hope you will find this special thing sometimes. I have found it in you. The feeling I can’t describe, have to be love. If you looked at me my stomach contracts and if you touched me my heart makes a thousand loops and I can say nothing. Every time when I see you I want to kiss you, but I know that this is impossible because you are in love with someone else, and you are not ". Well I think you would never love me in this way, that I loved you. See ya. I wish you all the best with your new love and don’t worry about the separation from Gillian. There are so many other people, who love you, honesty than she. Le gra go deo the person who will love you forever. "

Nicky stares at him and his faces turned red. "Well he" aah she is very nice, but looked at this card." He hand him a pink card with thousands of hearts out. He can’t look into Shane’s eyes. Shane stands up and fetches a box. He opened it. Nickys eyes became bigger. There were all cards in it, he wrote to Shane for Valentines Day, for Birthday and Christmas. Nickys lips began to tremble. He looked into Shanes eyes. "What’s that???" he asks nervous. "That’s every card from you. Since five years you wrote me cards for Valentines Day, for Christmas and for my birthday. Nicky, I have observed you today. In the morning, you take this card into my letterbox, aren’t you?" Nicky nodded. He jumped up and wants to run away, but Shane holds him. "Nicky what do think why have I kept these cards?" "Because you don’t know that they are from me." "No darling, because they impressed me so much. And now I know that you love me too." "Do you love me??" Nicky asks shy. Shane winds his arms around him and laid his hands into Nickys neck. "Yes, Darling yes with all my heart." He pulls Nicky at him and kissed him slowly and softly. A lighting fleshes through them. Nicky puts his Arms around Shane and reply the kiss. They are falling on the load of letters and can’t stop kissing each other.

Prologue:

Nicky and Shane are in love forever, Gina and Gillian were accusing of fraud. The other Westlife mates were happy about the relationship of Shnicky and together they make music for many years. Shane and Nicky were married each other and adopt two girls (twins) named Jacqueline (Jacky) and Madelyn (Mickey) and three Boys, called James, Duncan and Valentine.

~End~